Friday, April 29, 2005 

Catching up


Wow...It has been a while since I posted and all sorts of things have been happening. I have been listening to a ton of new music lately and I wanted to share what is new.

Devils and Dust - Bruce Springsteen
This is some of the best writing that I have ever had the pleasure to listen to. The songs are dark in a way but very thought provoking. I have been buying a lot of music on iTunes lately but this one is worth buying in the store. It is a two sided CD/DVD with a beautiful series of acoustic performances that are beautiful to watch. I think as I get older I appreciate writing so much more.

Songs for Silverman - Ben Folds
Most famous for "Brick" as a member of Ben Folds Five, Folds solo album is really well done. In particular, the song, "Gracie" struck me like a truck. I really miss her. Those of you that know me know what I am talking about.

La Tortura - Shakira
The first single from her upcoming double CD set is amazing. Sure she is gorgeous but that is not what makes her so great. She sings like she is always out of breath and just trying to get out the next note with all of her power. It is great to hear from here again. Right now I am listening to her song from a few years back, "Underneath Your Clothes." There are not many love songs this well this well done.

American Baby - Dave Mathews Band
If their upcoming album is as good as this first single they will surely have another massive hit album. This is one band that I really want to see live.

Help Somebody - Van Zant
This song by two of southern rock's biggest stars, Johnny and Donnie Van Zant (Lynyrd Skynrd and .38 Special) really has the power to make you think. Country music has really changed and rebels are finally taking over again. There is one line in this song that really sticks out to me. It says simply, "If you want to hear god laugh tell him your plans." We all may think we are on the right path but are we? That is a good question!

If you have read this far...thanks! I know I really go off writing about music and I know that my tastes are a little eclectic. I firmly believe that music makes life a little more bearable. I would love to hear suggestions about anything that any of you love to listen to. Have a great weekend. Thank you for the time and as always...smile today!

Sunday, April 24, 2005 

Sunday Clouds


I hope that this post finds you all doing great out there. I am doing well here I suppose. It is a gloomy day outside and the clouds have snuck into the house making everyone tired. Meg is resting in the bedroom, I am typing away slowy and Hector is alseep on the sofa.

I am about to get into my car and go somewhere...anywhere where I can be surrounded by the buzz of life. Maybe I will go the mall but it is more likely that I will end up at a coffee house with an ipod reading and relaxing. I just need to get some energy going before I fall asleep!

I will sign off now and leave you with a link to some photos that I took while I was in San Francisco a while back. I really should live there. I love the water and the people and the views are amazing. I bet Union Square and the wharf are bustling right now! One day I will live a stones throw from an ocean. That is a promise that I have decided to make to myself.

Click here for the photos. Smile today.Posted by Hello

Sunday, April 17, 2005 

Sand Heart


It is Sunday at 4:30 and I just took a handful of pills. Don't call an ambulance...it's ok. I mean, I did not consume Valium with Jack Daniels (never really liked the stuff) or anything like that. I just took the pills that I forgot to take this morning that are supposed to help all my guts function in the correct way. I take about 20 pills a day for this purpose but I often wonder if they really help. I bet they do somehow, but how?

Anyway, the picture above is interesting to me. When I was little I probably made a heart in the sand at some point...we all probably do this at some point. But as children everything is literal. As children a heart in the sand is well...a heart in the sand.

But as adults we look deeper. For instance when I see the heart in the sand now I wish that I could see it again as a little boy. Instead I see a symbol of love that can be wiped away, washed over with tide-like emotions and easily soiled. Maybe I am too dark and negative anymore. Maybe I am too jaded.

But onto happier things now...I just bought a shiny new book because I promised Dyllan that I would keep up with my reading and the sun is shining on a beautiful day. If I listen closely I may even hear a bird or two singing but I never listen that closely so I probably won't. Maybe I should listen closely. I will see what I can do.

Also...in the spirit of The Spud King, a blogger tried and true,click here for an amazing song that will really make you think about hearts and bushes and love and stuff like that. Smile today. It can only get better from here.

Thursday, April 14, 2005 

many stamps


I was "tagged" by The Spud King a few days back and asked what song on my computer best describes me. It took me a while because I have about 3,000 songs on this crazy thing but I think I finally figured it out! The song is more about what I want to do more than anything but it works. Click here to hear the tune.

Also...I have sent this question to three of my favorite fellow bloggers. If you have some time, check out Megan's blog, Dylann's blog and Melody Ann's blog. They are all great!

One more thing...the photo above is of a mailbox in Mexico. I hope that I can fit in the slot!

Wednesday, April 13, 2005 

I am furious!


I hardly ever post twice in one night but this is crucial so bear with me.

This may very well be the worst photo that I have taken but I took it to prove a point! The sign says "special offers exclusively for you" so naturally being the bargain hound that I am I went quickly to the restroom to check out the deal. I found no special deals there!

I did however find the following not so special things:

  • A homeless man washing his ass in the sink.
  • An old man with his pink boxers at his ankles showing the world his "parts" in front of a urinal.
  • The not so glorious scent of festering crap.
  • A ton of grafitti (I guess if I go back tonight I might get lucky!)
  • A turd stained wall.
  • A man talking to a mirror.

American advertising is going to hell rapidly. I should have complained to a manager! I want my special offer!

Smile today! :-)


 

The Golden Gate


I believe that The Golden Gate Bridge in san Francisco, CA is one of the most beautiful things that I have ever seen. There is something special about its grace. It just sort of hovers on top of the waves like a giant sailboat.

I took this photo right about sunset last night from quite a distance and I think that it turned out well. I am staying at a hostel here because room rates are amazing and there are many people from all different parts of the world. I came to San Francisco to meet a couple people about possibly doing some public speaking in regard to my life and health but I am not sure what to do. I will figure it out soon though. The peace and quiet here really allows me to think and that is nice.

I wish I could travel and stay in strange places constantly but Meg hates when I am gone. I understand her position however. I would feel the same way if she was gone. I also miss her very, very much and that makes the distance that much harder to endure.

Well, I think I will sign off now. This has not been the most exciting post. I need to come up with new ideas and more fun things to do with this blog. I want to figure out a way to share music better and maybe I will also post some stories, poetry or more photo albums.

Does anyone have any requests or ideas? If so, email me at: ruben.porras@gmail.com or leave me a voice message at: (206) 338-live. If you don't want to leave a voice message...call me on my cell phone at (209) 204-1411. I would love to hear from some people that have been reading this thing for a while. I will try anything! I want to keep this thing fun to read! Hey...did I just post my cell # on my blog? I have lost my damn mind! Oh...why not? We only live once right? :-)

Have a good day and smile!
RubenPosted by Hello

Sunday, April 10, 2005 

I AM HAPPY TO BE ALIVE TODAY!


Today is a very, very special day for me. This is the second anniversary of the day that Megan woke up with me when we found out that I was terminally ill. Today I woke up next to her again and I plan to everyday for the rest of my life.

Thank you Megan for loving me on the hardest days of your life! Thank you Megan for loving me for my heart and mind and for not being scared away by my illness. I am alive today because of you and I will always love you for saving my life, teaching me how to love and showing me that I really do have a soul inside my hard shell.

The photo above is of Tony Brusca, the lead singer of my favorite band, The Brody's. I met Tony and the band about five years ago in Chico, CA and their music has gotten me through all sorts of craziness. It was by my side through my divorce and most of all it has been with me via ipod when I have gotten really sick.

Read the lyrics to their song, "Next Life" and you will understand why it means so much to me:

Next Life

(brusca)

When I was 13
I snuck into the movies
I saw animal house
With dominic and rudy
Sometimes I feel like
My life comes to a standstill
Like walking in the deep snow
Up a very steep hill
I was standing in the river
Singing a new wave song
I pass around the polaroids
But I can't remember anyone
Open up the bottle
Pass the rush around the table
The morning crew is just arriving
On the 6 o'clock horizon
Told me once told me twice
Walking home alone broke
Joker's wild in the next life
I got lucky in the next life
I got the money in the next life
I got the girl in the next life
Don't think twice
Joker's wild in the next life
I listened to what the coach said
Fourth place is up ahead
Eighth grade track star
Gotta wonder where you are
Johnny got a lollipop
He took it to the bus stop
The catholic school girls
Never worried about their cruelty

A message to Tony and the band:
The next life is going alright for me guys. I got the girl. Money is alright and I am lucky to be around to enjoy it. The joker is definitely wild this time around! I believe that is what makes the whole damn ride so much fun! Thanks for taking me back in time every single time that I listen to your songs. Thank you for allowing me to feel young. I will see you all very soon. Megan and I would be honored if you were guests at our wedding.

I hope that everyone out there has a beautiful day. Smile and have some fun. Today is the first day of my new year and I am excited about that. Live like Each Day Counts.

Thank you so much for reading my words.
-Ruben

One more thing...Get information on The Brody's at www.brodys.com where you can find music downloads and videos. Also, you can buy their music via amazon .com and itunes. The album, Unexamined Life is an honest to goodness kick ass rock record that will make you feel young again if you have the urge to do so. Relive your youth or experience it for the first time with The Brodys! No matter your age or musical preference these guys will have something that will make you feel great!

Friday, April 08, 2005 

The Conference


Hello out there! I am writing from a Journalism conference in Sacramento, CA today. I am here to study writing and to further contemplate my crazy life. I am feeling that Journalism is where I want to go with my career. I just need to decide a field to really focus on. This is all like life 2.0 for me. I really can't screw this version up!

The photo above is of me with Darla Givens. She is a meteorologist here and we watched her as part of a live newscast today. The energy of a live newscast is amazing and I could do that daily. It looks like a jumbled up mess but it all comes together in the end. Just like my life I suppose!

Anyway, many of you look here to read about crazy stuff and interesting stuff so here you go...About 11:00 last night a group of us headed out for a walk and we were actually attacked by a group of guys shooting at us with a paintball gun. The police helped us out and even had helicopters looking for the evil doers!

Two of us were hit but those that were are still alive to tell about it today. Well, they are alive but...a little green!

Take care today and keep checking in when you can. I will have some more juicy, thought provoking and inspiring stories soon. Maybe....

Smile today!Posted by Hello

Tuesday, April 05, 2005 

The 20 Things...


I was surfing through blogs this morning and I came across a great blog that had a very interesting post. In the enrty the author wrote a list of 20 things that she often wondered about. It got me thinking...I wonder about a great many things...but what are the 20 main things that I wonder about? Let me give this a try...

  1. Will I see Willie Nelson perform before one of us passes? He has always been one of my favorite songwriters.
  2. Will I ever have a son? I share the name Ruben and with my father and I would love to carry that tradition on.
  3. What would it be like to live on a beach?
  4. Could I ever leave The United States behind forever?
  5. Would I be happier if I left California behind forever?
  6. Why is Wisconsin so famous for its cheese when cheese from Oregon is so much tastier?
  7. Is there life after death?
  8. How does Ivory soap float?
  9. Will Joe Pesci ever play another mafia character? He was amazing in The Goodfellas and Casino.
  10. Will I ever own a home?
  11. Why do I crave carnitas tacos almost daily when pork is so bad for me?
  12. Will I ever live in San Francisco?
  13. Will someone ever pay me for my words?
  14. What would it be like to be a photo journalist?
  15. Why do poor people in Mexico seem more content than the poor here?
  16. What would it be like to be a private investigator?
  17. Will people really miss me when I'm gone?
  18. What will my children look like when they are my age?
  19. Will there ever be a cure for my illness? I don't expect a cure to be discovered in my time but I hope doctors and scientists never stop looking.
  20. What would it be like to run with the bulls in Barcelona?
Thank you ARTCHIK 23 for making me think today :-)

Friday, April 01, 2005 

The Secret Site


This is something that really hit me like a truck when I read it. It is in small print but the photo will get bigger if you click it. It says, "I still haven't told my father that I have the disease that killed my mother." Imagine holding that secret inside of you. It would just kill me.

I found it on a site called Post Secret. Random people send postcards with their deepest, darkest secrets and they are scanned and posted on this site. This is something that you have to see. It is really amazing the secrets that some people keep. Maybe I will send something there soon. Have a great night!Posted by Hello

About me

  • I'm Ruben
  • From Modesto, California, United States
  • This space could be a million lines long but I will try to make a long story short. In April of 2003 I was diagnosed with a rare terminal liver disease and treated for Hodgkin's Lymphoma in my neck. Because of the combination of diseases and amount of liver damage, doctors estimate that I have between 2 and 5 years to live. Hence the name of this site, "Each Day Counts." If I cannot win this battle I will fight, love and travel until the very end!
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